Change
I am the first to admit that I never liked “change”, not even a little bit. I was the child who cried when rooms got repainted or floors got redone. I hated anything and everything that did not seem “the way it was before” or different from the “normal way”. I had a routine which I lived by, accomplished things by the book, and never tried switching up my day to day life. I did attempt to try new things as I grew older, but this apprehension for change still was a barrier that held me back both physically and mentally from broadening my horizons.
Unfortunately for me, Covid-19 was the epitome of my fears. The massive change of life that we all experienced this past year sent me into a tailspin. Not only this, but the uncertainty of this alteration of living was overwhelming. Throughout the first couple of months I did some major soul searching. I had to admit how uncomfortable I was with the situation before I could learn to grow with it.
What I found interesting was the more that I adapted to this “change” the more clearly I could think about different aspects of my life. It was during this time that I realized that I wanted to transfer schools. Now that you know about my reaction to change, you can surely guess that this decision was not immediate nor was it decided in a matter of weeks. It took over 3 months of thinking and going back and forth until I made the ultimate decision to transfer schools. I knew no-one, had no idea what the inside of the school even looked like, and did not even know if we would get to be in-person at all.
I completely rerouted my life in the middle of Covid-19, but this time as terrified as I was, I could admit that change was what I needed.
Ultimately, I do not think that without Covid-19 (my source of change) I would be at Nazareth or where I am today. I am thankful for this massive shift in my life, as much as it scared me. I feel as if I have finally come to terms with the fact that modifying good things in return for great things is how I should view this topic of “change.” There will always be a sacrifice associated with the new but I can confidently say that I no longer fear “change.”
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This blog is very relatable! Covid-19 has just thrown every single thing that we know for a loop. If you really take a second to think about what is happening in the world, it is almost mind-blowing. We are forced to adapt to the new world and do our best to succeed. I also agree with you that rerouting my life due to the restrictions has ultimately helped me find new activities that I love to do!
ReplyDeleteChange is so overwhelming to me and so many other people as well. I completely understand why it is so difficult for you. With Covid everything seems to be so different. I feel like our whole lives are completely changed like the way we go to school, the way we play sports, and even the way we go out to restaurants. It does force us to look at our lives in different perspectives, that is a definitely a different way to look at the situation.
ReplyDeleteI completely relate to you! I've never liked change because I am a hard believer in having a routine. Last school year I ate the same breakfast everyday, wore certain clothes on certain days, ate the same lunch everyday, and always had the same after school activities. I lived by my schedule and never veered from it. Once COVID-19 hit, my schedule went out the window. I had absolutely no order in my life. Although it was very messy at first, I was able to learn more about myself and find many hobbies that interest me. I was so blinded by living with a concrete schedule that I missed so many blessings in front of me. I am so happy you were able to overcome the fear of change and see the beauty in it.
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